So my married life has not gone as planned so far. My goal was to be employed within the first month. Now nearly 4 months in. I have worked a temp job for 3 days and am now employed part-time from home as a Social Media Evaluator.

Its tough. I got my first job out of college before I even graduated. It was great, and it made it feel like finding a job was so easy. But boy was I wrong.

I have a strong resume, good experience, I run my own side business, and I think that I am a pretty good communicator. SO WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!

I have been having a rough time lately accepting the fact that I am not yet working a corporate job with my own office and my own income. Its hard when my husband goes to work everyday and comes home to talk about how hard the day was and all I can say is, “I did two loads of laundry”. I have been so hard on myself about how little I feel I am contributing to this marriage and our financial state.

Matt is wonderful. My husband is wonderful. He disagrees with my negative opinions about myself and only focuses on the good. He inspires me and is constantly behind me in whatever I want to pursue in life.

Last night I was crying about how guilty I felt for staying at home and spending money on groceries while he went to work. Instead of agreeing with me and telling me how much I need a kick in the rear, he told me that the perfect job will come along and that having me in his life has made everything easier.

I don’t do much, in my opinion. I just cook and clean and make sure that the pantry is full. But Matt also points out how I am working towards my goal of building my photography business back up, how talented he thinks I am, and how much he appreciates every little thing I do.

On top of that, I got a foot rub last night.

How on earth did I land such a man?

I’m not saying that I need a man to pick me up when I am down and to make me feel like I’m worth something. I can do that on my own. But Matt makes me feel reassured that I am doing the right thing- following my passion and dreams. I am always second guessing all of my choices in myself and his opinion is the most important to me. If he thinks I am doing something right- then I must be.

Today is a new day, and I am not going to let my hardships get me down. Whether my career is in an office or from home- I will keep working towards it every day.